A fresh start! Today
is that for sure. The past 3 ½ weeks
have been emotionally agonizing. After
much prayer, much thought, much conversation, and a few beers, I decided to
resign from my position as a teacher at the Montessori School
There is no need to go into detail as to why I made my
decision. It’s made. I’m at peace with it. I spend the last 3 weeks at school really
savoring each moment with Amara there and cherishing the time I spent with my
students. I took tons of pictures (this
is me we are talking about), I communicated constantly with the teacher who
would be replacing me, and I cried some too.
At school a tiny bit, at home often.
Brian and I told Mara last Wednesday that she would no
longer be going to school and that she would be home with me everyday
instead. I think Alaric was more
questioning than Mara- she said she was “amazed!” and then asked if she could
still have a play date with a school friend.
See, she’s my mentor through this really. She’s the one I’m looking to model how to feel and how to behave. If only we all could simplify our emotions
and our lives and think like 4 year olds.
She smiled. She giggled. She even gave us hugs. She was excited for something new. Me too.
I can’t wait to be home and spend a few more precious months with her
before she goes to Kindergarten next year.
I’ll home school her a little each day but honestly, I’m not worried
about this girl, academically- she’s already reading and writing and she’s so
bright. I’m giddy to be able to focus on
my home and family more too and have the opportunity to volunteer in Bubba’s
classroom and sub some too.
As we said our prayers Wednesday night, Mara said he felt
happy and a bit sad too. I get
that. That’s me to a T! I’ve been very confident in my decision but
I’m sad to go. I LOVE THIS SCHOOL! Anyone from face book knows I praise
Montessori endlessly but also give lots of Kudos to this specific school. I love who I work with. I adore my students and tell them often I
love them. I am sad. I told Mara what I’ve been telling myself for
weeks (I think she’s got a better grasp that me on it already).
“It’s OK to be sad.
I’m sad too. We have great friend
and lots of fun times. Those will never
go away. They are in our hearts
forever. Now we get to try something
new. You and me. Together. Its gonna be awesome!”
It will be awesome. A
fresh start. A new beginning after an
incredibly challenging year. I’m ready
for it. There will be more ups and downs
on this journey. But I’m confident the
ups will outweigh the downs and I’m only looking forward not back.
Metamorphosis Montessori School transformed my child from a
defiant strong willed princess who loved
to have her way but loved others to do things for her to a poop shoveling, egg
collecting and frying girl who now climbs trees, takes out garbage, reads,
helps, participates, and irons too!
Truly a metamorphosis. I’m
forever grateful for the experiences Mara and I both had at this little gem of
a school and I know those times have made me a better teacher and mother.
I’m ready to start fresh.
Here we go…
A look back
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